Recently, I read C.S. Lewis' sermon "Transposition," which he delivered on Pentecost, 28 May 1944. In this sermon, Lewis discusses the limitations of our physical bodies in responding to spiritual events. Ironically, Lewis started the sermon with a mention of glossalalia: speaking in tongues. I'd recommend you read the sermon, simply because Lewis has such an excellent point, which is: We respond physically to spiritual experiences, simply because we have no other means to respond.
This sermon caused me to think a bit about a discussion with a former student. I'm somewhat convinced, reading Lewis, that we seek the ecstatic because we desire a "repeat" of our conversion experience, especially if that experience was a joyful, emotional one. Some seek a repeat of conversion in music; my student mentioned a worship leader transposing between chords, sending the congregation into ecstasy simply from a higher chord in a song. Others seek to repeat the emotion through gossalalia.
Our spiritual experience at conversion caused a physical and emotional experience, and some part of us urgently — longingly — desperately, even — desires to repeat that experience.
Is this logical? Should we constantly seek to repeat the reaction to the greatest event in our lives, the event that signaled our spiritual birth?
St. Paul says, "No." The Corinthians longed for a repeat experience, so much so that they elevated glossalalia above any other spiritual gift. Paul urged them to seek a higher gift: prophecy. Unfortunately, my personal experience tells me that prophecy doesn't always bring an emotional "high" anywhere near my own conversion experience. Prophecy — the gift of proclaiming the truth of God's word, not the foretelling of events — is difficult work. Prophecy requires immense preparation, and the proclamation of unpopular truths is certain to cause opposition. In my knowledge, no one was ever martyred for glossalalia. We can't say the same for prophecy, Jesus reminds us. People have died in the prophetic service.
I think this is the error in the Church today: refusing to seek "higher ground" because we seek a repeat of an emotional experience instead. We plan our services to elicit emotional responses equivalent to our conversion. Then, worship leaders and congregations are sadly disappointed when the experience fails to repeat itself. "The Spirit just wasn't here today." Well, Our Lord tells us He is present when 2 or 3 are gathered in His name, regardless of whether the emotion is there or not. Still, disappointed worship leaders work harder on next week's service: new songs, new chording, new arrangements of music, new slides in the Powerpoint presentation, new testimonies; anything to bring about an emotion approaching that of conversion.
I'm realizing that the desire to repeat an emotion, an experience, explains more than the problems afflicting the Church today. People seek to repeat the emotion of first love, the "high" that comes when you first meet someone, the infatuation. Then, when the infatuation fades — as it inevitably does — people panic, not realizing that infatuation transforms itself into true love that does not fade but lasts forever. Unfortunately, people so seek the infatuation they leave the one for whom they are no longer infatuated, failing to see the devastation in their wake as they leave relationships God never intended to be broken.
Yet, St. Paul calls us higher. "I would rather that you prophesy," he says. There are events that cannot — should not — be repeated. We are called to seek higher gifts, regardless of their emotional value. Man cannot live by bread alone, but he also cannot live on emotion alone. Glossalalia is a gift. I will not join my SBC "brethren" in denying its existence or denigrating its value; however, glossalalia is a sign of the Spirit's presence, not the sign. We have no leeway to think Cornelius and Company stopped growing and spoke in tongues the rest of their lives. I'd like to believe Cornelius and his household went on to proclaim the gospel throughout Caesarea and the Empire, wherever they went. I believe we fear reaching higher, for the greater gifts. Lewis says in his sermon "The Weight of Glory" that "we are far too easily pleased." Too many people are willing to settle for glossalalia when so much more is waiting on those willing to ask for it. "Ask and it shall be given." Paul told the Corinthians, "Brothers, do not be children in your thinking (1 Corinthians 14:20)." As we grow, we must seek higher gifts. Perhaps we'll keep the gifts we were given, perhaps not. I've found that God never takes anything from us without giving something far greater.
Higher gifts are difficult, and in spite of our desire for them, we have no guarantee God will give us the exact gift we crave. I didn't ask for the gift of prophecy, of proclamation; it was given to me by grace. However, I propose a spiritual "Montrose' Toast:" "He either fears his fate too much, or his desserts are small, who dares not put it to the touch, to risk or lose it all." Ask high! Aim high! Montrose spoke of risk in a military sense, but Our Lord says He wants to give us good gifts. There is no risk in asking God for greater gifts. God promises great things to those who seek them.
Conversion is great. Spiritual growth is greater. Those who content themselves with the emotion of conversion, or with any pale substitute like glossalalia or musical stimulation, will find they rob themselves of great gifts from the Father of Lights. Let's not settle for the former things when God has great things, greater blessings, waiting for us.